Had a bad day again...

I wish that I could have a good day. Or something good in my day that wasn't fleeting...

I did something nice today....

A lady couldn't pay for her ticket. Don had lowered the price as much as he could. She still didn't have enough. I paid for the rest of it.

I spent the last of my cash on something I didn't eat. For a woman and her children, neither of which I knew.

Everything has sucked today.

I made a promised phone call as I walked to my car. It rang once and he hung up on me. I wanted to cry...I wanted to call him back, but I didn't.

He text me a few minutes later. Saying that he was in a noisy bar. I didn't say anything about my being upset. About my wishing I could see him. About how it hurt that he just hung up on me.

I'm not the kind of person to do that to someone while they are doing something or while they aren't.

I just sent him one that said, "Okay. Hugs. I miss you. Have fun."

I started to cry as I drove home.

I couldn't help it...I hate it when I feel like this. When I can't stop the tears. When they come back if I ever get them stopped.

I just want to curl up in his arms and cry....

I wish he could hold me right now....