Constant Struggle

Everyday is a struggle to me.

I wake up wondering how I am going to feel today, what kind of day is today going to be, am I going to feel like I am alone like I do a lot.

I never know.

It gets harder.

Some days are easier, yes, but it just seems to get harder.

I don't ask for help.

When I needed help before, it wasn't there. I fight my own battles now. I don't seek out help. I don't seek out comfort, but I don't fight it when it is offered and I want it. I don't seek out anything.

I feel so alone right now...