Silence

Suddenly.

I am filled with this silence.

It is the sound of nothing. The feeling of that nothing.

There is no echo. There is no wind.

Just silence.

Silence of sadness and tears.

Silence of fears and whispers.

The silence of not knowing.

It saddens me to feel this silence.

Yet...

I prefer this silence to the noise that usually fills my head, mind, body, soul.

I think that it is just...easier.

Easier than disappointment.

Easier than the breakdowns.

Easier because I can feel the tears coming and prepare for them or fight them.

Easier because I do not feel the hole in my chest threating to tear me apart and suck me in at the same time.

At least not yet.

Easier because at least in the silence things seem to make a little more sense.

And in that there is hope.