So.
I have come to the conclusion that I would not blame any person on the face of the planet ever if they did not want to be involved with me.
I am fucked up on several levels.
One thing that can be awkward or confusing is my relationship with my exs.
I don't push them away.
In fact..I keep them around if I can help it.
We are essentially friend's with benefits.
But if I were to get involved with someone on a real level, I would stop the benefits. I would remain friends, but the benefits would be gone.
Sorry.
Just kind of musing.
Been thinking about things a lot in the last while.
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From experience I can say that with time the ones you are truly supposed to be friends with, after a relationship that ends up being best friends with benefits type situation for a time before waning to friends only, are the ones who stay with you for years and years and would do anything in the world for you.
Like my best friend Chris...we dated for two years, split up, were best friends with benefits, lost contact for a brief time, but then found each other again and have remained close friends ever since without the benefits thing. We are best buds and will be forever. We even help each other when life throws either of us a curveball. Those are true friends. All others were just users, nothing more, nothing less. Just love them for who they are and they eventually fade into the wind.
There is hope for you. You are a wonderful person. I can see the radiance in you that so many miss out on because they look to only the surface. They forget to look at the person as a whole.
Here's lots of hugs and love
Krista
My friends with benefits get a bit grumpy at me if I get upset over something even though you would think that they would have realized that I do overanalyze and read more into things than is necessary. Other things make them grumpy as well.
It always seems to be okay in the end though. At least in that "no one talks about what happened and why we were arguing" kind of way.
I don't see one of them, at least, becoming the kind of person that would do anything for me even though I do anything that I can for them. He is too caught up in other aspects of his life to pay attention many other places.
You are good to me, dear. Maybe what you say is true. I don't know. I tend to disagree, but that is me. I am, as Joel so kindly describes it, "contrary" so I disagree with everything.
Hugs and love for the Krista.
Christie.
You know my opinions on the matter...
Maybe I'm too much of an anarchist, but it you desire love, you have to be free. Love can only grow in an environment of liberty and freedom, to paraphrase Emma Goldman.
I do know your opinions on the matter, Tyler. And thank you.
You are sweet.
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