Absent.

I have been feeling rather blah recently. Allergies, it has been determined.

I haven't heard back from Iazzie. I don't know what that means. Because, honestly, it could just mean that he hasn't checked his email in a while, something I have been known to do from time to time.

I am broke, but I am going to see Andrew tonight anyway. He is leaving for Georgia late tonight. I am going to meet him in Knoxville maybe around 11. I miss him.

Was at Joel's last night. Just wanted someone to cuddle with and he offered. Truthfully, I think that he and I are simply comfortable. He loves someone else who lives too far away for him to see regularly. If she was lived closer, I wouldn't be in his world. I love company. Need it. Crave it. I grow tired of being alone. It will never be more than what it already is between us. I love him, yes. But I have moved past the hope of us ever being something. I love all of my ex's. I talk to all of them as well. (Except for the one that has been driving me crazy because he always messages me when I am in a foul mood and want to be left alone by people seeking advice and wise words.) I take what is offered and cling to it right now. I am in the middle of a revolution, and I just need something. Because I may very well have nothing when that is all said and done.