Monday, April 21, 2008

Internal Conflict

Yesterday was stressful.

It was at the fault of no one but myself.

I feel so very alone all the time.

I have grown tired of seeking out the small happinesses that are few and far between.

I broke down yesterday. Again.

I went to mom's an took a hot bath and IMed a friend.

I felt kind of bad.

He wanted to help. He wanted me to talk to him. To tell him what was wrong.

But I couldn't.

I do not depend on others well.

They never fail to disappoint me.

They never fail to just go away when I have always been there for them as I am able.

I actually felt really bad, but I couldn't just up and make myself talk.

Opening up like that isn't easy for me.

4 comments:

Crystal Child said...

Sends some hugs and love.

You are a beautiful person in so many ways. Full of radiant energy.

If you ever need an ear or even a shoulder to cry on, I am a very good listener.

Hugs, love and light
Peace for your heart
Krista

Missy Mao said...

Oh, Krista.

You are good to me, dear. Sweet with words too.

I try to avoid doing that to people, I appreciate the offer though. Thank you.

Hugs.

You are a good friend.

Christie.

Crystal Child said...

You are very welcome dear. We ought to get together sometime and do photos. I found the most incredible place to take some the other day. The gardens at UT are extraordinary.
I am on call this weekend, but the next one I am off if you would like to get together. Just let me know.

Cheers
Krista

Missy Mao said...

This weekend wouldn't work for me anyway. I am heading to Nashville Sunday to go to a show.

Next weekend, at the moment, is free. We can see about working something out. ^.^

Christie.