Autumn turns

I feel good today. A little unwanted and hurt, but I feel good.

It finally feels and looks like my season.


I feel alone right now, but I am dealing. Despite that. I feel better than I have in a little while. I want this to last for a while. This good feeling.

I want to be happy. I don't know if this is happy or just delusion after everything that has gone on.

I am actually looking forward to whenever it is that Joel is going to get Andrew and I together at his house. I don't know. I guess I am just going for it. Trying new things. Why wouldn't Andrew and I click? We get alone when we are around each other.