Hope

I am feeling very good today. As strange as that is, I am.

Despite everything that has gone on with Joel and the fact that Jay is acting like a stupid man again, I am feeling good. I think it is because I am moving on. I have accepted things how they are, and I am looking forward to meeting up with Andrew at Joel's. Yes, I am nervous. I do not know how that is going to go or anything, but I am looking forward to new possibilities.

I still love Joel. There are still all of the same emotions there. It is still going to be hard because of all of that. But I am moving on as best as I can.


The monthly deaths continue. July- my father. August- my baby girl Sally. September- my baby boy Jay Jay. And now October- my relationship with Joel.

I think I am becoming someone new or better. Maybe just a better version of me.

Whatever it is. There is hope.