Despite

Despite the fact that I do not feel very strong or very good about anything involving me...

I have come to terms with certain things.

1. I am not going to let any one use me knowingly.
2. I am not a second choice, third choice, etc.
3. I am either a first choice or no choice. You do not pick me simply because what you wanted isn't available.
4. I am not the "other woman" or one of many.
5. I am the only woman or you don't get to have me outside of friendship.
6. I may not feel all that great about how I look or who I am, but I do know that I deserve better than lies and illusions. I deserve to love and be loved without having to jump through hoops and without having to change who I am.

I will not change for you.