Retraction

I am not feeling so invinisible and independent today.

Yesterday's post (rather the one from like 2 something this morning) was a result of my feeling very good and very strong about who I am.

That woman is gone. She has been replaced by that stupid teenage girl that rears her head far too often for my liking.

Honestly...I am apparently a masochist. I keep making it so that I get hurt. I keep setting myself up for my heart to get crushed again and again. I don't like it, but I keep doing it.

It isn't even anything that anyone has done this time. It just is. I make myself do things, look at photographs, that make me hurt and wish that I could be there.

Shoot me and put me out of my misery. Please.


I want to be strong.
I want to be indepedent.
I want to feel loved.
I am tired of feeling alone.