Dawn of the Dead

I am bored. And very lonely. I don't want to talk to or be around many of the people here right now. I don't really want to go out into very public places. I have texted two people that I want to talk to.

I have gotten replies from neither.

I call one.

He was asleep...Gah. I woke him up. I hate waking people up unintentionally with a phone call or a text.

I felt bad and told him to go back to sleep.

I call the other.

No answer.

Sigh.

It kind of bugs me about the second one.

When I do get to see him, he is always texting someone. If he does that when I am there, why can't he answer or text me back now. I understand being asleep. But I have been texting him all evening with no reply from either destination.

Wait.

I just got a reply from the second. It reads,
"Tired and going to bed. Hugs."

I feel so very loved right now.

I can understand being tired. But it is the first message I have gotten from him all evening when I have been trying to keep a conversation or start one. And that is what I get.

I have one thing to say...

What the fuck?!

Sometimes I wonder why I am interested in men. All they do is hurt you.

....Then I remember that the sex can be pretty damn amazing.

But even then that isn't much of a reason a lot of the time.

Is it even possible to find a man that won't hurt you every time you turn around? Or won't hurt you when you are most vulnerable even if you aren't showing it?